Kyla... A Great Little Girl

Whew! Right now, at this moment, I do not feel weighted down, or confused as to how I can live the way I do, with this terrible feeling that is left inside me. So I thought I would write. I just got off the phone with my mom, who God bless her, makes me laugh all the time. She is crazy, loud, and stubborn. My mom is someone who has the biggest, warmest heart you will ever find in a person...until you cross her negatively...then she is done with you just as quickly as she gives a smile. But she will give a person many chances to repair the relationship, until one day she decides she has had enough. She is strong... not in the physical sense, but she has this armour on her that is only visible when she is protecting a loved one. She will be the first to stand up and fight, and tell you what is needed in a situation. Her kindness is so overwhelming sometimes... it can almost be too much until you realize one day that kindness wont be around forever. And it will be missed when it's gone. So enjoy it while you can. Yes, my mother... she is a person you need to know and if you don't then get to know her because she is wonderful.

I look at myself and feel that I have a lot of those qualities, she has done her job as a mother... given her strengths as a woman to her daughter. I am not, however, so stubborn or as loud. That is when my dad's personality comes in to play. But my mom, has taught me to be strong, to be in a situation and if I'm not comfortable then I will speak up. I am not afraid to challenge a person, and I always protect those who are close to me. If someone hurts me then I am done with them also and it takes a long time for that respect to come back, if ever. But I am kind, I will do anything to help a friend, and I am always happy for those who come into good fortune in their life.

I now look at Kyla... oh my goodness... Kyla. She was better then both my mom and I put together. Her heart was bigger then ours, she had the calming spirit, she was very stubborn, and had that kind of nurturing about her that made her everyone's mom and teacher. She loved everyone, she would make a friend and that was it for her... she would make sure they were okay before anyone else. She has a best friend, McKenna, and Kyla always made sure she didn't have too much to drink after 7pm on a sleepover. Kyla would make sure McKenna knew how to spell the words on her art work they would do over here, and she never let McKenna get into trouble even if it meant she kicked her out of the house so she wouldn't get home late. (Giggle) Yes, she protected those around her. Although she never got into to many fights with anyone her own age, she did get into trouble a few times with some adults. Remember, Kyla was very stubborn and she had this quality of always making that shine no matter who was around to see it. It was something that was very difficult to parent, but as I look back on it now, I laugh because I absolutely would not want it any other way. It is who she is and I love it! Kyla never understood the distance around her and others when it came to her stubbornness, she would always talk to me about it. But instead of doing what her grandma, and her mom do, which is write them off...she prayed for them. She would ask God to help them, and then she would rest easy knowing they will come around eventually. Kyla... a great little girl.

I sit here thinking if she were here she would have become something great... some people are born to have the cards in their favor, she was one of those people. But you know what? She did end up doing something great. At the age of 7, she had done more in her life then many of us. We go through life thinking we have hardships but if you look closer you will see the greater picture. Kyla's ripple is growing...and Bret and I would like to see her ripple touch as many people as it can.