Happy Birthday Kyla!
Happy Birthday Kyla! Wow you are turning ten, double digits, that's a big deal. Sweetie, you are heavy in my thoughts tonight as tomorrow brings us your birthday. I cannot help but wonder how you will be celebrating it in Heaven. I'm sure those around you make the day special for you, as daddy and I did while you were with us. November 22, 1997 was the day that God had chosen for you to come into this world and bless those around you.
So many things to say, and to catch up on, although I feel as if you know exactly what we are doing... it's you who needs to catch me up on things. I feel like I have so much to say, but I really just want to hold you. That is my strongest desire in my life and the thing I miss most, being able to touch you. Smell your hair, hold your hand, watch you as you make your bed or write your notes. It's the everyday things I miss the most, which is something I regret taking advantage of when you were here with me. Watching you slide down the stairs on your tummy, hearing you scream in delight as daddy sits on you during one of your wrestling matches, or seeing you sit with your sisters reading them one of your favorite books.
I spent some time in your room tonight, had a chat with you, and shed some tears. I looked at your clothes, laying neatly folded in their drawers, and your shoes that are lined perfectly along your shoe shelf in your closet. I smelled your white blankie and ran my hands along your bed. I read some of your letters, and enjoyed studying your art work. You have such a good sense of color, very vibrant.
Your sisters are doing great! Kora is making a lot of friends and is enjoying Mrs. Gillette, just as you did. Kora is reading really well, and is learning how to do math... you would be proud of her and I know you would help her with her homework. Kora cries at times for you and feels emotions we don't know she feels. I think she misses you just as much as we do but for different reasons, you are her big sister and nothing can fill that. She loves you dearly and I hope you can hear her when she talks to you at night, as that is the only thing that comforts her on those sleepless nights.
Bree...Bree is just like you in many ways. She is very bossy, headstrong, warm hearted and very funny. I'm not sure how you and her would get along, you are both so similar. Although she would adore you as her biggest sis, and she would do anything you would ask of her. She is learning all about you and can now point you out in photos and say your name. It brings me joy to have her learn about you and how cool you are.
Daddy always reminds me all the time of your code you had with each other, "One, Two, Three...Go!" He misses you so much he can't grasp the fact to talk about it or make me think his guard is down. He thinks of you more than I know, and I hope you realize that he has always loved you and is very proud of you! Daddy talks to you often, as well, and can't wait to see you again.
Keep visiting me in my sleep, I always look forward to the next time we will meet. I think it's quite funny how I always feel as if I am disturbing you in some way. When I am able to see you it seems like you are doing just fine and are very busy, but you will take time out for me and give me a bit of you for the night. I thank you for that.
Happy Birthday Kyla, I love you and miss you!
All My Love- Mommy
So many things to say, and to catch up on, although I feel as if you know exactly what we are doing... it's you who needs to catch me up on things. I feel like I have so much to say, but I really just want to hold you. That is my strongest desire in my life and the thing I miss most, being able to touch you. Smell your hair, hold your hand, watch you as you make your bed or write your notes. It's the everyday things I miss the most, which is something I regret taking advantage of when you were here with me. Watching you slide down the stairs on your tummy, hearing you scream in delight as daddy sits on you during one of your wrestling matches, or seeing you sit with your sisters reading them one of your favorite books.
I spent some time in your room tonight, had a chat with you, and shed some tears. I looked at your clothes, laying neatly folded in their drawers, and your shoes that are lined perfectly along your shoe shelf in your closet. I smelled your white blankie and ran my hands along your bed. I read some of your letters, and enjoyed studying your art work. You have such a good sense of color, very vibrant.
Your sisters are doing great! Kora is making a lot of friends and is enjoying Mrs. Gillette, just as you did. Kora is reading really well, and is learning how to do math... you would be proud of her and I know you would help her with her homework. Kora cries at times for you and feels emotions we don't know she feels. I think she misses you just as much as we do but for different reasons, you are her big sister and nothing can fill that. She loves you dearly and I hope you can hear her when she talks to you at night, as that is the only thing that comforts her on those sleepless nights.
Bree...Bree is just like you in many ways. She is very bossy, headstrong, warm hearted and very funny. I'm not sure how you and her would get along, you are both so similar. Although she would adore you as her biggest sis, and she would do anything you would ask of her. She is learning all about you and can now point you out in photos and say your name. It brings me joy to have her learn about you and how cool you are.
Daddy always reminds me all the time of your code you had with each other, "One, Two, Three...Go!" He misses you so much he can't grasp the fact to talk about it or make me think his guard is down. He thinks of you more than I know, and I hope you realize that he has always loved you and is very proud of you! Daddy talks to you often, as well, and can't wait to see you again.
Keep visiting me in my sleep, I always look forward to the next time we will meet. I think it's quite funny how I always feel as if I am disturbing you in some way. When I am able to see you it seems like you are doing just fine and are very busy, but you will take time out for me and give me a bit of you for the night. I thank you for that.
Happy Birthday Kyla, I love you and miss you!
All My Love- Mommy
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